Today marks the first day of the next 30, in which I am challenging myself to spend NO MONEY(with the exception of course for fresh produce needed for dinners, birthday/baby shower gift(s), & gas). Other than that no money will be spent. I have found myself ever since the baby was born going shopping almost on the daily. Finding excuses to spend money. I am not making excuses, but I think with all the pre-baby talk about how you lose yourself, and its NOT ALL ABOUT YOU anymore, has made me want to spend more. I wasn't about to let that happen!!! I wanted to stay hip & current. Even though I am only 25!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A lot of women I talked to (mostly clients) made the idea of having a baby so bittersweet. It really had my mind all twisted.
LET ME MAKE THIS CLEAR:
IT IS THE SWEETEST DAMN THING YOU WILL EVER DO
Maybe they've lost themselves along the way, but I sure as hell did not.
The fact is, I will always be who I was before, but now add mom to that.
I go out (rarely) with my girlfriends, and I feel like my "old" self. I feel like Kylie...With a baby. Which is exactly who I am. So I don't exactly want to think about it as my "old" self, but rather the "new/updated" self.
I wouldn't change this life for anything. My little Bellin is just perfect. She brings so much joy to so many people. And to be a better person, and mother, I am getting this problem under control....or at least trying ;)
$oooooooo....Here i$ to the next 30 day$!!
